keeping my cool

ok, i'm sitting in the library now trying to eat lunch and keep my mind off the impending afternoon. wait, what? oh that's right. we begin our gross anatomy lab this afternoon. As a little background info, i became a vegetarian in part because i get a little a lot creeped out being around dead things, therefore i certainly don't eat dead things. so as you could imagine, the thought of touching and cutting into a dead person makes my stomach turn and my brain go a little fuzzy. i'm choking down a pb&j and a snickers bar to try to decrease my chances of passing out. however i think this might increase my chances of vomiting. place your votes in the comments area about how you think this will go. i'll fill you in later :)

i hear what some of you are saying. the chance to have hands on experience with a human is valuable. we'll see. some of you might also be saying, didn't you know what you were getting into when you began this journey to med school? well, have you heard of denial?

as for now i wish i could spend the afternoon happily studying the clinical uses of genetics. but alas. i go forth to conquer my fears and misgivings*. thank you for your cyber support.

xoxo,

k

(e is at home with no knowledge about what her mom has to do today. she just knows she's upset that she's home for so long)

*i want to make sure it is understood that i have the utmost respect for the donors and their families. it is a generous and selfless gift of knowledge and opportunity and i do not take that for granted.